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People are strange when your a stranger.

Katie — Thu, 09 Sep 2010 11:19:41 +0100

So, let me first start by stating: Im new to this site, and I have little understanding but hope to learn it, and use it as one of my "tools" in what I call my "Sobriety tool kit". Maybe even, someone will read this and even like it enough to write me and let me know this is not just me and my computer:)

If anything resonates in my head right now, its that Doors song, going something like "people are strange, when your a stranger people are strange when you're alone". I keep thinkiRead More...

Strange To Know

Wayne — Tue, 31 Aug 2010 22:49:25 +0100

well it is somewhat strange to know that i would be having to start one of these myself a steps program. i found this page coming to seek help ideas or what ever for one of my friends that has been battling with meth and i have received some very good information and it has help, but there is nothing more that i feel i could do cause. our friendship is tainted so much that it may never be called a friendship again. well, i guess i have crossed a line that i shouldn't have anRead More...

Stephanie's Blog

Stephanie Mow — Wed, 18 Aug 2010 22:56:49 +0100

Well I have made it a little over 30 days clean now...I can hardly believe it! I'm feeling pretty good in general, but I still have my days when I am really down and depressed...but I'm sure that's normal this early in recovery, so I just keep an optimistic outlook and know that it will get better every day. Plus I'm thankful for having such a great psych doc that specializes in addiction...my medicine regime is working pretty good for me. I look like a walking pharmacy halfRead More...

Stephanie's Blog

Stephanie Mow — Tue, 10 Aug 2010 21:47:33 +0100

I'm doing good in my recovery, no relapses, so I've been clean a little over 3 weeks I think. I don't really count the days, just is a pain in the ass to me!! The guy in my life stopped using the same time I did and hasn't used since as well, so I'm so proud of him as well! It's been hard at times with both of us sobering up because we can get real cranky at times and bicker a lot, but everything is always OK the next day! It's hard at times staying sRead More...

Stephanie's Blog

Stephanie Mow — Thu, 22 Jul 2010 22:19:35 +0100

Thought I'd drop in and at least do a short post today! Well it's Thursday and still hot...it feels like I'm living on the sun!! Plus now we get lucky with severe thunderstorms everyday and torrential rains, which just ups the humidity...ughhh. I'm still doing good and still have been staying clean, so I'm so proud of myself! I mean I do have cravings, but I find those getting easier to resist and just feel better, physically and emotionally, not using! So to thoRead More...

Stephanie's Blog

Stephanie Mow — Tue, 20 Jul 2010 00:10:16 +0100

Well I relapsed on Friday yet again. It would've been 5 days clean, but I put myself into a situation that I knew I shouldn't have been in and smoked some weed. I was really hard on myself and was really down. But then I thought about it and calmed down a bit and realized there was nothing I could do about it now. Tomorrow would come and I would focus only on that day, Saturday. So Saturday came, I got up and kept myself busy by cleaning the entire house, did somRead More...

Sobering up

Steve W — Wed, 14 Jul 2010 18:40:58 +0100

It's been less than a week and I've been sorely tempted by that computer upstairs. For an alcoholic, that would be like a beer in the refrigerator. Tossing and turning, I contemplated several times going back up, closing the door, and getting into the bad stuff. Somehow I managed to avoid it.

I find the really scary part my willingness to expose myself online to people with a webcam. That's something that I've not done but a couple of times, but it is dangRead More...

Stephanie's Blog

Stephanie Mow — Tue, 13 Jul 2010 19:30:47 +0100

Well thought I'd do a quick posting today on here...I usually do longer posts on my blog website. I just wanted to share with you all that I actually have one day sober, and have been sober so far today as well!!! I had the worst day yesterday that I've had in a long, long time. I cried and cried and fought with my boyfriend about his use and other things, they turned off our gas because I couldn't pay the bill, and I then really looked at how bad off I am financially....somRead More...

Stephanie's Blog

Stephanie Mow — Thu, 01 Jul 2010 20:41:57 +0100

So I read the comments made on my last blog and I would like to say thank you to those who responded with advice. I always appreciate those who take the time to care about other people and that are sincere. And I have to say to wiledchild that I love people like you who are very blunt and honest! It was really a slap in the face for me and a wake up call. Deep down I already knew everything you said was the truth and that I am putting myself into bad situations, etc.&nRead More...

!! LOVE !!

Bill Chase — Thu, 10 Jun 2010 23:23:30 +0100

Hi all, This morning I was just checking the recovery sites I've joined. (I've Joined a few after the warm reception and support I received here) and looking through messages. When lo and behold I stumbled upon one from a young girl, who said after checking my profile that she was looking for " love and protection" also she would love to hear from my to exchange pictures and more about herself ( no I am not naive ) , I was shall we say surprised, of course this was instantly an ego booRead More...

Stephanie's Blog (New to this site)

Stephanie Mow — Thu, 10 Jun 2010 20:30:42 +0100

Man does time go by fast anymore! I can't believe it is already June and summer is here. I'm still using so I have no clean time yet. I've been trying and trying and it just isn't clicking yet with me. I'm to the point where I just can't do it anymore-drugs are ruining my life and I am to the point where I don't care whether I live or die. I wish sometimes that I could just disappear or just runaway, but I know that won't solve my problems and my addiction. Read More...

"Hitting Bottom"

Bill Chase — Thu, 10 Jun 2010 01:01:27 +0100

Hi All , I just want to touch on "hitting Bottom" as it is mentioned in the literature, and bandied about the rooms all the time, You ask people about their respective bottoms, and most tell you about, prostituting themselves, jails, losing families, being broke, and on . this all may be part of their respective bottoms, However this is not the element that the oldtimers were talking about and/or trying to get across.

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How I got here.

Stella Moraal — Fri, 28 May 2010 21:01:35 +0100

I come from a very disfunctional family, one full of physical and sexual abuse. I learned at a very young age how to disconnect from reality by disassociating. Before I knew it I was doing this all the time, and it was like a high all on its own. When I was ten my brother intruduced me to sniffing gas and other sulvents, when that wasn't enough I found pot, acid and speed. I did that for a number of years and also was heavily into drinking by then and was fast becomingRead More...

Howard's Blog

Tue, 25 May 2010 21:09:24 +0100

Today is May 25th, 2010

My relationship with my wife has improved since I got sober 426 days ago. The improvement is welcomed by both of us and life is more manageable. Life for us still has problems but, I have change in the way I respond to them.

I have changed - Today I ask for help.

Last Friday I was upset about a conversation my wife and I had about money.

My mind was telling me to say all kind of things to her and storm oRead More...

Howard's Blog

Howard Byers-Bell — Fri, 21 May 2010 02:08:46 +0100

Today is Thursday, May 20th, 2010

My sobriety date is March 25th, 2009, I have been sober for 422 days.

I am on my sixth step and I have 1 sponsee; his name is Marcus.

Today I am working in my studio, building a website and starting a blog site for my company on photography, video production and editing. I am also starting to blog on this site for my AA journal.

I've talked to my sponsor this morning and talked to Marcus this morning.

On Thursdays my gRead More...

1st Blog

Renee Young — Fri, 14 May 2010 04:00:00 +0100

Well, here I am. I am an alcoholic but I have had enough. This is the very first time I have used that term to describe myself. I've thought it... and I've pussy footed around using it, but it is the first time I have typed it out.

My last drink was on April 3, 2010 and I am glad to report that I did not get drunk that night. But that is the night I admitted I had a problem. Well, I had admitted it a couple of years earlier, but continued to believe lRead More...

Leaving Hell Through NA.. I am ready

Aaron — Thu, 13 May 2010 08:39:46 +0100

Its 12:40 am and I am up looking for ways to continue to educate myself and keep clean. I attended my second meeting today and it was great.

I want to speak up and ask how do I find a sponsor and how to initiate the 12 step program. I am so read to leave this hell I have become to know.

I am self employed and losing it all.

I have one good friend that I have known for 10 years and he is by my side through the hell, he has taken me to both meetings and stayed by my side.

New to this site

Stephanie Mow — Sun, 09 May 2010 01:38:52 +0100

I've met a couple of great people on this site that I talk to through email, but this is my first blog entry on the site. I'm a 35 year old female, I'm married (though will be divorced in the future sometime), have two boys (9 and 15 years old), work as a lawyer and am an addict. I took my first drink at 14, smoked my first joint at 15 and first did LSD,cocaine, crack, opium and other various drugs for the first time at 16. I had a really bad acid trip at 16, so bad thaRead More...

Poem called Miss Heroin

laurie — Fri, 30 Apr 2010 19:43:35 +0100

i don't know if this poem has been posted before... **new** but i found it on the internet a while back and saved it. just thought i'd like to share. TAKE ME IN YOUR ARM (Miss Heroin) So now little man, you've grown tired of grass, LSD, goofballs, cocaine and hash. And someone pretending to be a good friend says,"I'll introduce you to Miss Heroin." Well honey, before you start fooling with me, just let me inform you of how it will be. For I will seduce and make you my slave. I've sent men mucRead More...

Need Help Understanding Addiction

Gale Fredricks — Thu, 22 Apr 2010 06:57:09 +0100

Hi,
I am a mother trying to learn more about drug addition. My daughter is an attic of Meth and has used many other drugs in the past. To be able to help her, I need to understand what she is going through. She is currently in jail. I sent her a few true story letters relating to drug addiction experiences of other people and it really interest her and is helping her I believe. Other inmates would like me to send them letters as well and I would like to send as many letters and words of Read More...