Its 12:40 am and I am up looking for ways to continue to educate myself and keep clean. I attended my second meeting today and it was great.

I want to speak up and ask how do I find a sponsor and how to initiate the 12 step program. I am so read to leave this hell I have become to know.

I am self employed and losing it all.

I have one good friend that I have known for 10 years and he is by my side through the hell, he has taken me to both meetings and stayed by my side.

I am ready....