Today at my  12step workshop we did our 3rd step. We went to this beautiful chapel at the campus our workshop is at,and we said the 3rd step prayer as a group first. After that we were able just to sit and pray or meditate for a few mins. When we said the prayer together my mind was going a lil crazy, but the few mins we had after was great! I needed a min to myself to gather my thoughts and really pray to my god and really give myself to him mind, body, and soul. It was wonderful, I felt weightless  like i had 100lbs lifted off me,  I felt like I could just float away I was so light.  Everyone was telling me how wonderful it was but I didnt really know until I felt it. I'm so glad that I have these steps all the wonder women and men that I have met and the new friendships  I have made. I have never really had a friend that was around me just to help me or hang out with me, the ones I can remember just wanted to hang out with me because I had the connections. I didnt have a lot of money but people with money would always be around just for me to get them something. Yes of course I got something out of them too, but I would much rather have the few friendships that I have now are better then the hundred friendships I had when I was out there. The experiance I felt today I want to share with so many other people! The people I that I still have around and that are still using is my family and I want to give them what I have. I know that they have to want it on their own. The only way I can help them is let them see me and how much the program is helping me, how happy they could be, how they could have a relationship with thier higher power. Only they can go to there higher power and embrase it. I/ we can pray for those who are still sick and suffering, so please dont forget all the people you left out there (no matter  how much you didnt want to)  make sure they are all in your prayers even the ones you dont know. I will pray for yours if you pray for mine.

i am currently in a 12step workshop. i have never done a workshop or the steps on my own. i thought it maybe in my best to do the steps in a group first, but im now thinkin i may be wrong. we just now made it to step two so i know im not that far into the shop yet, but this step is making me ask so many questions that maybe i needed to do them on my own first. if i would have had a sponser before i started the workshop maybe i would have done things differently. i know what i want in life is be closer to my higher power and to have a better life im just not so sure on how to get that yet. my new sponser tells me to give it time and i have never been the one who likes to wait. i just have been having so many questions about the homework from the workshop i feel like i might not be doing things the right way. is there a right way to work the steps other then staying sober?

Hello everyone,  so I have a little problem maybe someone will have some insite for me. I am married been married to my husband for 4yrs but weve been together for 12 years, we have 2 kids 12 and 4.  I used for 6 years and i have only been sober 11 months. I hide my using from my husband for 6months, then one day when i told him about it i made sure that i had drugs with me that night so if he wanted to he could use them too. well of course he did. now i am sober and he is not and im fighting to get him sober everyday. i cant believe anything he says anymore, he has lost alot of our money in bad drug deals and i just cant seem to leave. ive tried to leave and get to the door and turn around, he will start crying and telling me that he knows that im doing what i think is right, but he loves me so much and he wants things to be like they use to be. i want a sober life more than anything and right now i still live like an addicit.  i know that i am the only one he has now. his mom is an addicit his dad is a workaholic and his siblings care less about him right now. so what am i suppose to do? if anyone has any ideas i would love to hear them. i love my husband very much and i dont want to go through the big D but i also cant keep on like this. he says he would get help but he has yet to do so. when hes sick he says he will go then as soon as a pill comes along he will us it.  i just dont know what to do. i have asked many people and gotten a few different answers i have prayed alot about this but god has yet to tell me what i should do what path i should take right now i really wish he would tell me something though.

Hi my name is Char and I'm an addict. I have 2 beautiful children and I have been with my amazing husband for 12 yrs married for 4 years on Feb.29th. I have  a huge family with plenty of aunts,unks,and cousins as well as my mother and grandmother. They have been there for me whenever I have needed them. I am lucky for such a big and caring family, and I now know just how lucky I am. I was out there using for 6 years. For the first year my husband nor my family knew. After a while from hidding it from my husband I got him started too. I was sick of hidding it and if  he knew I could use whenever I wanted and I wouldn't be using alone. Till this day I feel guily about this, of course my husband says that I didn't start this horrible life for us but I know different. Well I have been sober now for 11months on the 27th {if i make it}. I have been in treatment for 19months, and I have been in AA/NA for 5months. While in treatment I got into trouble and so I got a nuge from a judge to go to AA/NA.  I am so thankful to that judge! I really want to do the program and I want to do it the right way. For the last few months I really thought I was doing something wrong. I have been praying and going to meetings, but I was still feeling awful about myself and being mean to the people I love. I go to meetings and see so many people so happy and have had this sprital experience that I want so bad. So I pray and pray, I talk to people at meetings, and I try really hard but I don't feel that sprital awakening. Well lastnight I went to a meeting and it was a lead meeting. I usually don't get into lead meetings that much, but lastnight was so different. It was a woman named Heidi leading. She was my age and really seemed nervos, so nervos she almost gave the lead to another woman. I am so glad that she did getup there and lead because she really touched me. The things she was saying was like she was talking about me! She said for the first year and half of being in the program she felt like she was on a dry drunk. That she would come and sit in the back and not ever comment on anything because she didnt think she was ready to comment, that she didnt have the right to comment yet. She said how she was still misrable, how she didnt like herself and was just so hateful to anyone around her. How she would pray to her higher power and felt like no one was listening. I feel all these things too, so much that I started to cry. Well then she went on to say after she got the sponcer and she worked the steps things started turnin arournd for her. She had to learn that she didnt mess up her life over night and it wasnt going to get better overnight either. She gave me hope lastnight and thats what I needed.