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The February 19th “Just for Today” meditation brings to light the concept of reservations as precursors to relapse. These are not spontaneous lapses but rather the result of conditional plans we’ve unconsciously made, allowing ourselves an out when faced with specific triggers or pain points. Identifying these reservations requires honest self-reflection, acknowledging the “if-then” scenarios we’ve constructed in our minds.
Reservations often stem from our deepest fears and anticipated challenges. Whether it’s the fear of losing a relationship, facing financial instability, or dealing with grief, we create mental escape clauses that justify using drugs or alcohol under these circumstances. The danger lies in the fact that life is unpredictable, and many of our feared scenarios may eventually unfold, triggering our reserved escape plans into action.
The key to dismantling reservations is preparation and adjustment of expectations. By recognizing that pain and challenges are part of life’s journey, we can start to change our mindset from one of avoidance to one of resilience. Observing and learning from others in recovery who have faced similar fears and remained sober provides valuable insights and strategies for navigating our own troubles without resorting to substance use.
One of the most effective ways to confront and overcome reservations is by sharing them with others in the recovery community. Opening up about our fears and the conditions we’ve set for potential relapse not only lessens their power but also invites support, guidance, and accountability from fellow members who have faced their own reservations and emerged stronger.
On this day, February 19th, take a moment to reflect on any reservations you may be harboring. What scenarios have you envisioned that could lead you back to using? How can these be reimagined as opportunities for growth rather than triggers for relapse? Commit to sharing these thoughts with a trusted fellow recovering addict, sponsor, or support group, and engage in an open discussion on strategies to overcome these reservations.
Today’s meditation encourages us to face life’s inherent challenges with resilience rather than avoidance. By actively identifying, challenging, and sharing our reservations, we fortify our recovery and develop a stronger foundation for facing whatever life throws our way, clean and sober.